why do i keep giving pain?!?!?

Why do i keep hurting the one i love
even if i know that im not doing it on purpose!
i keep on doing the wrong things without my notice
or am i simply insensitive!

insensitive to even know how iv given pain to
the one i love
insensitive to even notice how she longs to see
the guy she once loved!

my heart keeps aching just as long as she
hurts inside and what keeps me hurting
is the fact that im the reason why shes in pain

sometimes i just want to simply end my life
to stop bringing misery to the one person i truly care for
i do realize this wont do anything but i guess its
the only way for me.. the cowards way of giving up

there's a part of that i dont know an empty space
a feeling like iv never felt before
a feeling of loneliness and sorrow
for not knowing who i am
and because of that i slowly hurt the people around me
which wounds them so

how i wish i could get over this and simply
say sorry to the one i love
not because i would want to ammend my mistake
but to apologize coz i know how much she misses the
guy she once loved and up till this day
he is still lost somewhere

just hope you'll still have the patience to keep this
imposter whose right beside her
and hope that the guy she loves comes back



>>kat im sorry for this day i didnt mean to hurt
you...
i know that its the same old line.. but i am sorry
for being insensitive and for being irresponsible..
but please dont think that im replacing you
for something that is less important than YOU..
Please forgive me! im sorry...<<