THE SCAR

ALL is Lost nothing more for me 2 do
Life as i know it has ended
Pain has taken over me
My sense of happiness continues to fade away

Crying alone in the dark
Not knowing what will happen tomorrow
Trying to hide the feeling that your heart has again been broken
That the person you think could carry you threw the day
has left you blinded and in pain.......

Confusion + Pain = SADNESS

Is there a better place,

To be right now

Than to be home,

Listening to the crickets’ sounds,

Outside the window.

Is there a better place,

To be right now,

Than in my bed,

Closing my eyes,

Falling into a deep sleep,

To forget about the days,

Forget about the nights,

Forget about you.

Heartbroken,

Nothing better than to sleep,

To forget that you are gone,

To forget your lies,

Forget the way,

You told me,

You never loved me,

Forget the way,

You looked at me,

When you left me,

I want to forget,

I want to leave this world,

Close my eyes,

AND Fall to sleep,

Just to stop the heart,

From beating.

I block my ears,

From hearing the sounds,

Like your voice,

Like when you sing to me,

Those lovely songs,

They sounded so tender,

Now they kill me,

They hurt me,

I don’t want to hear anything,

Don’t want to hear the waves,

Hitting against the sand,

Don’t want to hear the birds,

Chirping outside the window.

Don’t want to see my face,

Don’t want to see you,

Don’t want anything,

That has to do with you,

I want to close,

I want to block away,

The world,

Just to stop the pain,

In my heart.

I want my heart to stop beating,

To stop bleeding,

From your words,

AND Your lies.

11 Painful things

1.) Bringing back the feelings you've learned to forgert.
2.) Remeniscing good times.
3.) Trying to hide what you really feel.
4.) Loving someone who loves another.
5.) Having commitment with someone that you know wouldn't last.
6.) Sheilding your heart to love somebody.
7.) Loving a person too much.
8.) Right love at the wrong time.
9.) Taking a risk to fall in love again.
10.) Accepting that it was never meant to be.
11.) "WHaT iF. . . . .?!?!?!"

Breakaway

Grew up in a small town

And when the rain would fall down

I’d just stare out my window

Dreamin’ of what could be

And if I’d end up happyI would pray

Trying hard to reach out

But when I tried to speak out

Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here

But something felt so wrong here

So I prayed I could break away

I’ll spread my wings

And I’ll learn how to fly

I’ll do what it takes

Till I touch the sky

And I’ll make a wish, take a chance, make a change

And break away

Out of the darkness

And into the sun

But I won’t forget all the ones that I love

I’ll take a risk, take a chance, make a change

And break away

Want to feel the warm breeze

Sleep under a palm tree

Feel the rush of the ocean

Get on board a fast train

Travel on a jet plane

Far away and break away

Buildings with a hundred floors

Swinging round revolving doors

Maybe I don’t know where they’ll take me butGotta keep movin’ on movin’ on

Fly away break away

I’ll spread my wings

And I’ll learn how to fly

Though it’s not easy

To tell you goodbyeI gotta take a risk, take a chance make a change

And break away

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won’t forget the place I come fromI gotta take a risk, take a chance make a change

And break away

Breakaway

Everything is you (08/28/04)

You are the stars
everything near and far
all close and apart
you are my heart

You are the spirit behind my smile
things worth while
the morning dew
an intensive sun shining through

You are my inspiration
all good things ever done
the meaning of happiness
the secrets behind a kiss

You are a heavy midnight rain
the reliever of pain
the soul in my thoughts
there is nothing you are not

You are the grace of angel's wings
dreams, achievements and other things
the happiness behind my tears
the protector of my fears

You are everything sweet, worn and new
all things true
everything simple beautiful and true
Everything is you!Ü

im not perfect!

i'm sorry i'm not perfect
i can only be me
i'm sorry i'm not perfect
like the guy you want me to be

i'd give anything to make you happy
even if it makes me sad
i'd never do anything to hurt you
i don't try to make you mad

sometimes you get angry
and we start to fight
little do you know
i cry myself to sleep at night

sometimes i don't know
just what i did wrong
i don't understand
why we don't get along

every time we fight
i wish you could feel my heart break
sometimes i wonder
how much more my heart can take

and sometimes i just get so angry
that i don't know what to say
i feel just like a game
that everyone wants to play

but even though life has been rough

and it feels like i've had enough

there is still one thing i need in this world
someone who's true and could never be blue

the one thing i really want in this world

is. . .

to be loved by "YoU"!!

Your the one FOr me!! im sure of it!!Ü

You stole my heart right from the start
Now I just pray that we never part
Take my hand and pull me near
Tell me all the things I long to hear

In the darkness of the night
You shall be my guiding light
And when the sun begins to rise
I know I will always have you by my side

No one can make me feel the way you do
At times I begin to think it's all too good to be true
I know you love me and I do believe you
But sometimes I wonder... what did I do to deserve you?

They say, don't let a man/woman know he/she has your heart
Because once they know, everything will fall apart
But you stole my heart two years ago
And our love continues to grow

I know you are the one for me
I know our love is meant to be
You are all my dreams come true
I can't wait till the day when I can say, I do.

why do i keep giving pain?!?!?

Why do i keep hurting the one i love
even if i know that im not doing it on purpose!
i keep on doing the wrong things without my notice
or am i simply insensitive!

insensitive to even know how iv given pain to
the one i love
insensitive to even notice how she longs to see
the guy she once loved!

my heart keeps aching just as long as she
hurts inside and what keeps me hurting
is the fact that im the reason why shes in pain

sometimes i just want to simply end my life
to stop bringing misery to the one person i truly care for
i do realize this wont do anything but i guess its
the only way for me.. the cowards way of giving up

there's a part of that i dont know an empty space
a feeling like iv never felt before
a feeling of loneliness and sorrow
for not knowing who i am
and because of that i slowly hurt the people around me
which wounds them so

how i wish i could get over this and simply
say sorry to the one i love
not because i would want to ammend my mistake
but to apologize coz i know how much she misses the
guy she once loved and up till this day
he is still lost somewhere

just hope you'll still have the patience to keep this
imposter whose right beside her
and hope that the guy she loves comes back



>>kat im sorry for this day i didnt mean to hurt
you...
i know that its the same old line.. but i am sorry
for being insensitive and for being irresponsible..
but please dont think that im replacing you
for something that is less important than YOU..
Please forgive me! im sorry...<<