the Other Side of Me

THE SCAR

2006-10-26T17:32:00.000+13:00

ALL is Lost nothing more for me 2 do
Life as i know it has ended
Pain has taken over me
My sense of happiness continues to fade away

Crying alone in the dark
Not knowing what will happen tomorrow
Trying to hide the feeling that your heart has again been broken
That the person you think could carry you threw the day
has left you blinded and in pain.......

Confusion + Pain = SADNESS

2006-10-26T03:18:00.000+13:00

Is there a better place,

To be right now

Than to be home,

Listening to the crickets’ sounds,

Outside the window.

Is there a better place,

To be right now,

Than in my bed,

Closing my eyes,

Falling into a deep sleep,

To forget about the days,

Forget about the nights,

Forget about you.

Heartbroken,

Nothing better than to sleep,

To forget that you are gone,

To forget your lies,

Forget the way,

You told me,

You never loved me,

Forget the way,

You looked at me,

When you left me,

I want to forget,

I want to leave this world,

Close my eyes,

AND Fall to sleep,

Just to stop the heart,

From beating.

I block my ears,

From hearing the sounds,

Like your voice,

Like when you sing to me,

Those lovely songs,

They sounded so tender,

Now they kill me,

They hurt me,

I don’t want to hear anything,

Don’t want to hear the waves,

Hitting against the sand,

Don’t want to hear the birds,

Chirping outside the window.

Don’t want to see my face,

Don’t want to see you,

Don’t want anything,

That has to do with you,

I want to close,

I want to block away,

The world,

Just to stop the pain,

In my heart.

I want my heart to stop beating,

To stop bleeding,

From your words,

AND Your lies.

11 Painful things

2006-08-25T02:19:00.000+13:00

1.) Bringing back the feelings you've learned to forgert.
2.) Remeniscing good times.
3.) Trying to hide what you really feel.
4.) Loving someone who loves another.
5.) Having commitment with someone that you know wouldn't last.
6.) Sheilding your heart to love somebody.
7.) Loving a person too much.
8.) Right love at the wrong time.
9.) Taking a risk to fall in love again.
10.) Accepting that it was never meant to be.
11.) "WHaT iF. . . . .?!?!?!"

Breakaway

2006-08-21T22:49:00.000+13:00

Grew up in a small town

And when the rain would fall down

I’d just stare out my window

Dreamin’ of what could be

And if I’d end up happyI would pray

Trying hard to reach out

But when I tried to speak out

Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here

But something felt so wrong here

So I prayed I could break away

I’ll spread my wings

And I’ll learn how to fly

I’ll do what it takes

Till I touch the sky

And I’ll make a wish, take a chance, make a change

And break away

Out of the darkness

And into the sun

But I won’t forget all the ones that I love

I’ll take a risk, take a chance, make a change

And break away

Want to feel the warm breeze

Sleep under a palm tree

Feel the rush of the ocean

Get on board a fast train

Travel on a jet plane

Far away and break away

Buildings with a hundred floors

Swinging round revolving doors

Maybe I don’t know where they’ll take me butGotta keep movin’ on movin’ on

Fly away break away

I’ll spread my wings

And I’ll learn how to fly

Though it’s not easy

To tell you goodbyeI gotta take a risk, take a chance make a change

And break away

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won’t forget the place I come fromI gotta take a risk, take a chance make a change

And break away

Breakaway

Everything is you (08/28/04)

2006-07-26T02:27:00.000+13:00

You are the stars
everything near and far
all close and apart
you are my heart

You are the spirit behind my smile
things worth while
the morning dew
an intensive sun shining through

You are my inspiration
all good things ever done
the meaning of happiness
the secrets behind a kiss

You are a heavy midnight rain
the reliever of pain
the soul in my thoughts
there is nothing you are not

You are the grace of angel's wings
dreams, achievements and other things
the happiness behind my tears
the protector of my fears

You are everything sweet, worn and new
all things true
everything simple beautiful and true
Everything is you!Ü

im not perfect!

2006-07-20T03:12:00.000+13:00

i'm sorry i'm not perfect
i can only be me
i'm sorry i'm not perfect
like the guy you want me to be

i'd give anything to make you happy
even if it makes me sad
i'd never do anything to hurt you
i don't try to make you mad

sometimes you get angry
and we start to fight
little do you know
i cry myself to sleep at night

sometimes i don't know
just what i did wrong
i don't understand
why we don't get along

every time we fight
i wish you could feel my heart break
sometimes i wonder
how much more my heart can take

and sometimes i just get so angry
that i don't know what to say
i feel just like a game
that everyone wants to play

but even though life has been rough

and it feels like i've had enough

there is still one thing i need in this world
someone who's true and could never be blue

the one thing i really want in this world

is. . .

to be loved by "YoU"!!

Your the one FOr me!! im sure of it!!Ü

2006-07-13T02:27:00.000+13:00

You stole my heart right from the start
Now I just pray that we never part
Take my hand and pull me near
Tell me all the things I long to hear

In the darkness of the night
You shall be my guiding light
And when the sun begins to rise
I know I will always have you by my side

No one can make me feel the way you do
At times I begin to think it's all too good to be true
I know you love me and I do believe you
But sometimes I wonder... what did I do to deserve you?

They say, don't let a man/woman know he/she has your heart
Because once they know, everything will fall apart
But you stole my heart two years ago
And our love continues to grow

I know you are the one for me
I know our love is meant to be
You are all my dreams come true
I can't wait till the day when I can say, I do.

why do i keep giving pain?!?!?

2006-07-12T01:19:00.000+13:00

Why do i keep hurting the one i love
even if i know that im not doing it on purpose!
i keep on doing the wrong things without my notice
or am i simply insensitive!

insensitive to even know how iv given pain to
the one i love
insensitive to even notice how she longs to see
the guy she once loved!

my heart keeps aching just as long as she
hurts inside and what keeps me hurting
is the fact that im the reason why shes in pain

sometimes i just want to simply end my life
to stop bringing misery to the one person i truly care for
i do realize this wont do anything but i guess its
the only way for me.. the cowards way of giving up

there's a part of that i dont know an empty space
a feeling like iv never felt before
a feeling of loneliness and sorrow
for not knowing who i am
and because of that i slowly hurt the people around me
which wounds them so

how i wish i could get over this and simply
say sorry to the one i love
not because i would want to ammend my mistake
but to apologize coz i know how much she misses the
guy she once loved and up till this day
he is still lost somewhere

just hope you'll still have the patience to keep this
imposter whose right beside her
and hope that the guy she loves comes back

>>kat im sorry for this day i didnt mean to hurt
you...
i know that its the same old line.. but i am sorry
for being insensitive and for being irresponsible..
but please dont think that im replacing you
for something that is less important than YOU..
Please forgive me! im sorry...<<

my wait For You is worth it aLL

2006-07-11T02:21:00.000+13:00

I want it to be you and me
In my dreams you're all I see

I want things to be great
That's why I'm willing to wait

The time we spend together
I would love to treasure forever

You've opened up my eyes in many ways
The haze that was there before has finally gone away

You've opened up my mind to many hopes and dreams
Things I've never known before, I now know what they mean

You've opened up my heart to these feelings deep inside
These feelings I've never felt for any other girl
I really hope that you can see
How much you mean to me

Fear in yOurSelf

2006-07-11T01:58:00.000+13:00

its not always easy to lose your way
sometimes its one of the greatest fears
we can ever encounter in our lives
having to face the fact that
we dont know ourselves or
we dont even know where we want to go
and what we want to do with our lives...

its the common mistake of people to overshadow
this feeling with fake emotions
when everytime we ignore it
it slowly eats up our life then later on
our souls...

Life slowly tells us to ignore this feeling
when its trying to tell us that
our lives werent always what we intended
and that hoping that it might fade away
is simply a cliche our minds would continue to think
not unless we ourselves discover our very own
skeleton's in the closest which is ourselves...

For You!

2006-07-09T02:55:00.000+13:00

For you, I would do anything...

I would lie to keep you from trouble,

I would cry to show I care,

I would steal to keep you from hunger,

I would cheat to keep you warm,

I would claim you innocent to keep you free,

I would say you are my sister, if need be.

For you, I would go anywhere...

I would walk a thousand miles to see you,

I would go to the moon to watch over you,

I would swim across the ocean to touch you,

I would crawl through the desert to reach you,

I would climb a mountain to catch a glimpse of you,

I would fly around the world if you needed me to.

For you, I would face anything...

I would fight a bear to save you,

I would march right into a storm go help you,

I would stay as a distraction so nothing would hurt you,

I would run through fire to guide you,

I would stand in front of anyone to protect you,

I would give my own life that you may be able to have your own.

My past and My present

2006-07-07T13:29:00.001+13:00

All has been said and done
iv made mistakes and each
and every one of them i regret

Though iv kept my filings all to myself
i have never tried to lie about what i feel

Yes i do admit that i was attracted
to a girl i wast suppose to love
and unconsciously i gave the one
true girl that i truly love the pain that
she dosnt deserve!

why cant i see that infatuation will always be the same
and that love and only love can be true to you

dont want to suffer no more
dont want to keep hurting the girl i love
just want things to go back the way they used to
when everything was in its place
when past stays in the past

i know that its been 2 years since this feeling came
and i do admit that iv gotten over it
just the girl i love knows this!

Cant take away the pain
coz no sory could ever take away
all the heartaches iv done

i guess all i can do is to show my love till the very end
but if time does not permit i guess
all i can do is to let go......

BLL_sht!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-07-06T02:28:00.001+13:00

Cant take it anymore!!! feels like im always
the one person whose always wrong!!!!
is it so wrong
to express passed feelings..
is it so wrong
to even think of these feelings
which my heart once felt!!
is it that important that the ONe
TRUE person
THAt i LOVE !!
wouldnt even give me A chance
TO even Defend myself!!! or
to even give her a chance to see the
Bigger PIcture in Life!!!

FRUsTRATED na KO!!!

2006-07-06T02:14:00.000+13:00

People always think the way they want to think
Talk what they feel like talking and
See what their eyes wants to see!!
BUt WHY cant they always be
MOre Open minded.. to see the Bigger picture
that Life HAs to offer them!!
FEELings what people give as an excuse
To surpass or to cover up their PAranoid mindS!!!
They dont always believe what they see
coz they always listen to their narrow minded minds
and believe the things they want to believe!!

Everything!

2006-07-06T01:16:00.000+13:00

With just one touch,
You make me realize so much.
How I have never loved someone so much, before,
And how I could love you so much more
Than I thought I could,
Than I thought I would.
But, I want you to understand,
I will always be there to lend a helping hand.
I will always believe in you
And would never think of being untrue.
I want my love to be the blanket against the bitter cold
And for our love to never get old.
Every moment we share
I will try to show you how much I care.
If I ever fail to express...
It doesn't mean I love you any less.
Just look into my eyes,
And you will see no lies.
You will see how much you mean to me;
You will see that you will always be,
The person who makes my heart sing.
You are, simply... my EVERYTHING !

Just wanted you to knw

2006-07-05T02:33:00.000+13:00

Just wanted you to know...
you make me smile,
make me laugh...
Just wanted you to know
I love being near you...
I love looking into your eyes,
hearing you laugh...
Just wanted you to know
I am so glad you came into my life...
so glad we met...
I just wanted to tell you...
just in case you did not know.

By my special someone!!Ü

2006-07-04T13:52:00.000+13:00

Before, my life was
like an abstract painting
that no one can really
understand what it really means.
Then, guy came that helped me
to make a new artwork of my life
with a clearer picture.
When she came into my life,
many things have changed.
Life that is full of uncertainty
and wretchedness turned into
a life full of colors and hope
like a plant that bloomed flowers again.
Spring came into my life.
he painted my life red
and put rainbow in my sky.
he shielded me from the fears
of life and rescued me from drowning of loneliness.
he is the lamp that gives light
to my path whenever confusion strikes my mind.
he feeds my soul with wonderful
meals of things about life;
things that made me realize
that life is worth living.
he is my soldier who protects me
from my battles.
The guy whom I can share
my basket of emotions
and gives me guidance along the way.
Every time I am with her,
I feel bunch of happiness
and wishing that it wouldn’t fly anymore.
My best friend is one of
my earthly angels who gave me
the real box of chocolate that
has genuine bliss and love
that no one in this
world could ever give me.
Roads along our way weren’t
smooth sailing all the time but
if I’ll be given a chance to be born again,
I’ll still choose to have him in my life.

Moment of happiness

2006-07-03T18:39:00.000+13:00

As we grow up, we learn that even

the one person that wasn't supposed

to ever let you down probably will.

You will have your heart broken

probably more than once and it's harder every time.

You'll break hearts too,

so remember how it felt when yours was broken.

You'll fight with your best friend.

You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.

You'll cry because time is passing too fast,

and you'll eventually lose someone you love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much,

and love like you've never been hurt

because every sixty seconds

you spend upset is a

minute of happiness

you'll never get back.

Something About You..

2006-07-03T04:06:00.000+13:00

I don't know how to explain it,
If only you could truly see,
How much I really care for you,
How much you mean to me.

I look forward to seeing you every day,
The grin that belongs only to you,
When I see you I can't help but smile,
There is just something about you.

When you put your hand in mine,
My heart suddenly beats faster,
I wish I could tell you right then and there,
That my life could never be better.

When you wrap your arms around me,
For a simple, gentle hug,
I want to stay in that moment forever,
And tell you how much you really are loved.

When I spend my time with you,
Its as if time keeps on slowing down,
Coz nothing around us seems to matter,
Because there is nothing sweeter than this.

No words could ever express how much you mean to me,
I just hope you have these feelings for me, too;
I can't figure out just what it is,
But I just cant get you out of my head.

With You

2006-07-03T03:09:00.000+13:00

Im finding it hard to turn around
and walk away alone into the night
coz all I wanted was for everything
to come true..
now all I want is to be over you
but I still cant turn around
and go coz even before
youve gotten me at HeLLo
and with your smile
that made my world smile with you
now im hoping that you feel
the same way to
coz I cant get over you..
I guess I just have
to keep hoping that
someday...
I could be with YOU!!

the Other Side of Me

THE SCAR

Confusion + Pain = SADNESS

11 Painful things

Breakaway

Everything is you (08/28/04)

im not perfect!

Your the one FOr me!! im sure of it!!Ü

why do i keep giving pain?!?!?

my wait For You is worth it aLL

Fear in yOurSelf

For You!

My past and My present

B*LL_sh*t!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FRUsTRATED na KO!!!

Everything!

Just wanted you to knw

By my special someone!!Ü

Moment of happiness

Something About You..

With You

BLL_sht!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!